He wasn't taking the mickey at all - you've totally missed the point. I'll try to put into words what, I feel, many people here are too polite to say:

1) You are running before you can walk - 32kg is too heavy for you at this time.

2) Listen to David Whitley.

Apologies to anyone who feels aggrieved at my including them.

Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

[Edit: Just beaten to it, quick typing there Chiggers!]